Thursday, October 7, 2010

are you in there little fetus??

I am very much feeling like I'm on an emotional roller coaster this week. And I really feel like I need to get off before I puke. I like roller coasters & all, but being on the verge of tears each and every day is not how I would choose to spend my time. And every 'new' symptom gets me wondering 'could this be pregnancy or am I just bloated??' It's funny how your mind plays tricks on you. Because what I really know is that it's too early for any symptoms at this point. And my body has been full of artificial hormones for nearly the last month so I really have no concept of 'normal'.

I don't blame the hormones for these feelings. I blame the process. This is definitely a stressful process to go through. The injections...they're the easy part. Making decisions that could affect your family, your health, your future little babies...that's stressful.

All I know is that the waiting is killing me and my body looks like I'm 4 mos pregnant thanks to hormones & lack of exercise (not allowed to). I want to be able to walk around and say 'no, I'm not fat, I'm pregnant'.

I just want the guessing to be over. For nearly 3 yrs I have wondered if we will be a family of 5 (or more??) and all that guessing ends next week. In a way I'm dreading it.

If you're a fan of Friends than you may remember this song. Kinda how I'm feeling right now :)


Kim's Treasures said...

Sounds like you need a hug!!! (((HUG)))

And maybe a laugh...hubby and I went to look at a new townhome development so we could get an idea of what we want when we finally sell our house...the realtor asked me if how much longer I other words when's the baby due??? I AM NOT PREGNANT!!! Thanks to 2 c-sections causing weak stomach muscles and uncontrollable thyroid disease...THIS IS HOW I LOOK, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!! I can look back now and laugh...sorta.

Keep your chin up!

Jen said...

If you need anything let me know! You now have my number! Even if you want to go out for coffee or thrifting (or something) to get your mind off it before we had planned to meet up. :-)

Cheryl B. said...

I am sending good thought your way. I love the new look on your blog. Very festive. Looks like you are keeping busy.

Tami said...

hang in there Michelle! I have been praying for you every single day.


Doris C.-R. said...

Hi Michelle, we don't know each other personally, but I read your blog from time to time. I can understand how you feel at the moment. My husband and me are trying to have another baby (no. 2), but it's not that easy. Each month I have this terrible feelings between hope, disappointment, and fear. I hope so much you will have a baby again! It makes me so happy to see little babies! Beary hugs from Switzerland, Doris

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