are you in there little fetus??

I am very much feeling like I'm on an emotional roller coaster this week. And I really feel like I need to get off before I puke. I like roller coasters & all, but being on the verge of tears each and every day is not how I would choose to spend my time. And every 'new' symptom gets me wondering 'could this be pregnancy or am I just bloated??' It's funny how your mind plays tricks on you. Because what I really know is that it's too early for any symptoms at this point. And my body has been full of artificial hormones for nearly the last month so I really have no concept of 'normal'.

I don't blame the hormones for these feelings. I blame the process. This is definitely a stressful process to go through. The injections...they're the easy part. Making decisions that could affect your family, your health, your future little babies...that's stressful.

All I know is that the waiting is killing me and my body looks like I'm 4 mos pregnant thanks to hormones & lack of exercise (not allowed to). I want to be able to walk around and say 'no, I'm not fat, I'm pregnant'.


I just want the guessing to be over. For nearly 3 yrs I have wondered if we will be a family of 5 (or more??) and all that guessing ends next week. In a way I'm dreading it.

If you're a fan of Friends than you may remember this song. Kinda how I'm feeling right now :)